Finding the light at the other end of a well.

In the name of Allah,

most gracious, most merciful.

I’m so embarrassed  for not being able to handle ONLY 13 students whereas the teacher in the class can handle all students no matter the class size is big or small.

I can’t engage the students attention.

I don’t want to shout because there’s no point in doing it.

Violence inclusive shoutings are so rare now. you only hear a teacher shout only when the class is too much or when it’s lower primary students. now, the kids aren’t scared anymore. and i prefer it that way, because i rather the students be scared out of reasonings and respect. not out of volume of sound (like how we; the 80s and 90s are programmed.)

But with that, how do i start making them listen to me? im so tired of trying to explain an MCQ question for 10 minutes, walk ard the class to make sure they are doing corrections and wait another 10 minutes to get the kids to be quiet. soon enough, one period is gone and i can only go through 2 MCQs. pathetic right?

12 years old taking PSLE yet don’t know what consequences and responsibilities mean.

But it’s not as if this is my first time teaching. i taught a class before. but the environment is so different. i don’t understand why.

Sigh. But i can’t blame them.

Part of this is my responsibility i have yet to realise the solution. God help me.