In the name of Allah,
most gracious, most merciful.
I recently cut my hair short. because i find my previous hair makes me look haggard and not neat.
when my mom saw my short hair, she then asked me ” So you not going to wear tudung on saturday?”
and she definitely caught me speechless. “Huh? of course i’ll wear.”
I didn’t understand why she asked me that question.
Why did she think i wear tudung for? for fun? because i choose to isolate myself?
I’ve been wearing it for 4 years (Alhamdulilah and InsyaAllah, still counting), doesn’t she know that i know what modest, humble and shy means by now?
She thought i would take out my veil and be naked because of vanity and make other people jealous?
20 years living in this house, seeing the decisions i chose, how i grow up, the thoughts (although not always but occasionally( at least) ) i voice out, don’t tell me she still don’t know what im made up of.
at least to know that i won’t sacrifice what i have for something; so worldly like showing off my body to strangers, men and others?
am i that transparent?
