In the name of Allah,
most gracious, most merciful.
We talked abt how slow and wasted if they were to go through ITE first then to Poly. On his defence, my other cousin said that it would actually be good because she said, the people she is competing with are ITE students, not people with her qualifications. Because ITE students already have their foundation.
but of course, we said it’s still a stupid idea. let’s count. at 17, you pass your Olevels. spend 2 years in ITE. and then, enter Poly when you’re 20, but usually we hear these kind of people coming in at 21 for females, and 23 for males(after NS). whereas, you could have left poly when you’re 19.
So, it’s wasting time, wasting money. and at 23, you’re just gg to start your life. and wanting to go university is a different matter.
And then, i realised one thing.
the world’s unfair. it’s not fair that we are judging them against our line of expectation.
and it’s all because, “for how you judge. you will be judged as well…”
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my cousin’s upset because i can’t get what i wanted. that is; to go NIE. then she told me i can go the other way round; apply as relief teacher and ask the whole primary schools in singapore if they need relief teaching and after a year, i try and apply for nie again.
but i gave up on them the moment i knew they gave up on me.
im tired of chasing these things. applied umpteen times for a place in nie and i still cant get in. waited for ntu’s letter for what? a month? and finally got to know that i got rejected? and appealed again, and now im back to square one, waiting; so far it’s been 2 weeks.
now, i don’t want to wait.
might as well, work and see where it leads me.
but it would be bloody sad not to be able to complete my studies and become a mathematician.
the only subject i knew i have hope on, and the only subject i love and will always love. the only subject i held on to and sacrifice the rest.
but batman’s parents said that we fall so that we can know how to stand up.
